bittersweet
Sunday, April 22nd, 2007today was a beautiful day. we went to a museum, myself and a friend, and wandered amongst some good, some bad, some ugly paintings, some multimedia, some chinese texts. my friend, she speaks some english, but not so much with me, so i am forced to speak my mix of mandarin, cantonese, english and always refer to the electronic dictionary. its a challenge, and laughing fun. she is young, and fresh, and easygoing.
after the museum , we took a long bus ride to a beach on the fringes of hk. so good to see trees and forest on the way!! the beach wasnt so big, but we ignored the closeness ot all the other people, who in finest urban style, ignored us too. spread on a blanket, we napped, laughed, drew little pictures, and translated a hundred and one words, some of which stick in my head. so i learn.
again and again throughout the day, her boyfriend calls, angry, wondering where she is. the phone rings, and she mentions to me ppsssssssttth, dont speak. its a secret that we are there together.
just as it was time to go, we lie on our backs, and look at the sky, behold! the sun, the moon, and in between, high above, a rainbow. thats what love is, thats beauty and happiness in a moment, regardless of what secrets and forbidden moves lie on the sands below.
on the walk back, on the bus, at dinner in tsim sha tsui, on the bus again, such closeness. we look at eachother, newfound friends, easy and happy and on foot, out and about in the world, somehow, creative in just being.
she took me to one of those stands, which sells a strange chinese tea, and forced me to drink it. it was pretty hard brew to down, but i did, some small sips, and i had always wondered what that brown stuff is…
bye bye, see u next time…and she is off to her boyfriend, and i go home. before we parted, i asked, do you love him? and she said yes, and answered, yes, he loves me…so i thought, this is when i must dissappear, and that closeness drifts into distance.
….the rest of this post has been deleted, because it is too much lonely bullshit…